Alcoholic

It's official, I think I am an alcoholic. This past weekend defiantly proved it. When I drink, I drink to much causing myself to black out even though I've stopped consuming alcohol a while before it happened. I thought I didm't black out this weekend but as it turns out, there is a shit ton of stuff I don't remember doing/happening. Much has to do with talk to people and that scares me because I say stupid shit when I am inebriated like that. As do most drunks but it's still scary. I like to send snap chats when I'm drunk and I sent some to my co-workers, obviously don't remember doing it, but it raised some concern that they're giving me an intervention. It kind of happened today at work because Anthony was kind of giving me a lecture about what my reputation on campus would be as "that girl" by everyone. It made me think about because I never really thought anybody would remember me or recognize me, but this last weekend a few people did from past parties I attended and did stupid stuff. So yeah, I am so happy spring break is here where I can be with family, keep a low profile, and let everyone do their thing and forget about me. I am however going to tone down the drinking. It's taking a toll on my body and is flat out making me do stupid shit. So yeah, I say this all the time but maybe this time will be true. BYE