Vandal Friday

I am kind of excited about vandal friday because I want to inspire a girl or show her a good time. Thats what happened to me as a freshmen. I had so much fun! This year I have to work but I hope to make it to the events after 8pm like swing dancing and what not. I met a lot of cool people last year and I hope I am able to do the same. Today was "vandal thursday" and the girl one of my friends had wanted to swing dance. We went to Beta Theta Pi because thats what they were doing all night and I was able to get her to dance with 3 guys. I hope she had fun because I tried to help out in making her night fun and memorable. I had to leave early though because I had homework due at midnight and I'm pretty sure I didn't do so hot. But I don't give a damn. Thats all. BYE.

High School

Sometimes I hate being at Idaho because greek life is so prominent on this campus, and everyone judges you solely based on what house you're in or if you're not in a house. It seriously feels like fucking high school all over agin and sometimes it makes me want to transfer. Like there are certain girls who tend to be more catty or bitchy towards other girls and it just flat out rude. They literally sit there and laugh behind a girls back. I hate this so much.  I hate witnessing it and having it down to me. Its mostly the girls I hate because they're so rude to one another its disgusting to watch. Almost every girl sits with a scowl on their face as if they hate life. Fuck this stuck up bitches. I am NOT trying to be back in high school with petty drama and judgement. BYE

Tuesday

I am so proud of myself. I actually worked out this morning. This quarter I was able to take a yoga class and a personal fitness class. My yoga class is at 8am tuesdays and thursdays, so I decided with my personal fitness class I could just go after. Since we didn't do anything in yoga, I came home to watch The Following on netflix until 10:30 when the pilates class started. I've never taken it before but holy shit. Let me tell you, shit kicks your ass. It's almost like ballet, so unless you're used to it, it works muscles you've never thought to do with a weight machine. We mainly did abs and butt muscles today, and I thought I had like decent abdominal muslces and decent butt muscles but hell no. I was shaking so bad and I couldn't walk. Damn. I hope this class and all this working out can get my fat ass in shape. Thats all/ BYE

Snap back to reality

Fuck tits. Back in Moscow. BUT not with out an amazing story to tell. So, here is what happened. I was supposed to fly out of Orlando on Saturday to get back to Spokane on saturday night. That way I would be able to sleep in my own bed, do some laundry, see my animals, do whatever before coming down to Moscow the next day.  Well, the air lines had another plan for me. When I get to the airport, an hour and half before boarding mind you, I check my bags and the guy behind the counter hands me what I thought was my ticket and says, "this is not your boarding pass. See the person at your gate." Weird, I thought, but didn't think to much into it. I passed through security, took the railway to Southwest airlines, go up to the lady behind the counter and told her what had just happened when I checked my bag. She took the ticket thing from me and was like okay so we're over booked but I'm going to see if I can get you on. Oh fuck. I sat down and waited. And waited and waited until she finally called me over and was like "so we are currently over booked. I'm trying to find someone to give up their seats but no one is coming forward. What this means for you is that if no one is willing to give up their seat you will not be allowed on this flight and will have to fly out tomorrow." At this point I was panicked because I didm't want to be late for school, and my dad had already headed back home.

She continued on by saying, "Because we are unable to give you a seat, we will give you a check for $1300 and put you in a hotel for the night and you can leave in the morning." My mind went blank and I'm pretty sure my mouth hit the floor when she mentioned the check. I couldn't really listen after that because I felt like I was going to cry with excitement. She explained to me that its called an "involuntary dismissal" which basically means that the airline kicked you off the plane. As an incentive the airline pays four times what your ticket was but it cannot exceed $1300. I did not give a damn about missing school anymore. Hell, I just made two months of a paycheck in less than an hour! She continued on by saying how I was THE LAST person to check in. Lets refer back to the fact that I had checked in AN HOUR AND A HALF before take off. If bitches got there before me why the fuck were they there so early!? But I this point I didn't care. I was so grateful to be receiving this check. And on top of that since they were unable to find a room for me, because it was spring break and everything was full, they gave me a $100 incentive for my next flight. It expires in a year. So I had basically made $1400 by missing a flight. HELL YEAH! I called my dad and we both laughed our asses off. He could not believe it! My mom was sad that I wasn''t going to be home soon but was in awe of the amount they gave me. Either parent had a dumbfounded look on their face when they saw the check.

But the unfortunate this was that were unable to pull bags off the plane. So it had arrived in Spokane before I did. Which meant all I had were the clothes on bag and my laptop and chargers in my backpack. But fuck, I did not care! I was able to buy whatever the fuck I want! And this money can help pay for summer school as well as me being able to send in my two weeks notice earlier than expected!!!!! HOORAH FOR AIRLINES OVER BOOKING! but yeah, that was my highlight. BYE

Alcoholic

It's official, I think I am an alcoholic. I drink my sorrows away on the weekend to cope with the face that I barely have a social life and about how much I hate school and working. This past weekend I defiantly thought I did a great job of not blacking out, but as it turns out, there is a shit ton of stuff I don't remember doing/ happening. I'm kind of upset about this because when I black out, I tend to do stupid, embarrassing, raunchy things that I would NOT do sober. I am so not giving examples because they are so bad, in my opinion, but I will say I am happy spring break is upon us. I need a break from school and working. Time to do nothing in FLORIDA. Thats right baby, Florida. I am expecting humid, hot, and rainy weather,but frankly my dear, I don't give a damn.

SPRING BREAK!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS HERE! FINALLY I AM IN FLORIDA WITH FAMILY, IN NICE FUCKING WEATHER, HAVING THE ABILITY TO SAY "OW, THIS SUNBURN HURTS" I COULD NEVER HAVE BEEN ABLE TO SAY THAT IN MOSCOW! (and yes this post is going to be in all caps because I am that excited. No need to shout in your head tho, that could get quite upsetting.) I GOT HERE ON SATURDAY AT 5 DID REALLY NOTHING BUT CATCH UP WITH MY FATHER AND HIS GIRLFRIEND. THEN SATURDAY IT WAS 80 DEGREES SO WE WENT TO THE BEACH. OH MAN IT WAS SO NICE. PERFECT BEACH WEATHER. I LEFT MY SWIM SUIT AT HOME SO I UNFORTUNATELY HAD TO TAN IN MY SPORTS BRA AND SHORTS. MIGHT I ADD THAT MY TAN LANES ARE SO BEYOND AWESOME. YES I DID GET A LITTLE RED BECAUSE I THINK I DIDN'T REAPLY THE SUNSCREEN AS OFTEN AS I SHOULD HAVE. WE WERE AT THE BEACH FO 5 HOURS, MAN I HOPE I GET ONE MORE DAY TO GO TO THE BEACH SO I CAN GET ANOTHER LEVEL OF TAN!!!!!!! TODAY WAS KINDA LAME BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN RAINING ALL DAY AND THERE WAS EVEN A TORNADO WARNING IN SOME AREAS SO WE STAYED INSIDE. IT WAS HUMOROUS BECAUSE WE ALL ON OUR LAPTOPS DOING "HOMEWORK" THEN WE ALL WENT TO THE GYM TOGETHER FOR A FAMILY WORKOUT. YEAH. NOW THAT THEY WEATHER HAS CALMED DOWN WERE GOING TO WATCH A MOVIE LATER. I DON'T KNOW WHAT MOVIE BECAUSE WHEN I WENT ONLINE TO LOOK AT TIMES I HAD LITTERALLY NEVER HEARD OF ANY OF THEM.. I NEVER HAVE TIME TO WATCH TV LET ALONE MOVIES HAHA BUT YEAH THAT'S ALL FOR NOW. bye.

Spring Break!!!

This day just needs to be over. For the past two weeks my sleep schedule has been so fucked up! No joke, I have been going to bed at 3 every night because I am doing homework and preparing for the following day. And i can gaurntee I am up at 8 the next morning getting ready for the day. I don't even want to  go to work! But I never do, thats not anything new. Yesterday I met with this eccentric old guy who woks in the ALB and revises all the business papers. He's quite the character but extremely helpful. He's very blunt and does not sugar coat anything. Which is kinda why I like him. Plus we had good conversation so he kept getting distracted. Then all night I had to go back through the paper and revise all that he corrected, then add in citation that some the group forgot. Which was actually really hard because I had no idea where the had  gotten some of their information. So based on the title of the article or book, I had to make a guestimate. I am so scared we are going to fail this paper portion and maybe not do so hot on the presentation. FUCK! well now I have to get ready for the presentation. YAY. BYE.

PRESENT

Holy poop. Im currently in the library with my business group working on our business presentation. I've already done my part. I somehow got the role of being the leader, which I hate because we have 3 Chinese students. One kid hasn't been here the whole time, but is doing his part by editing the final paper as well making the introduction and conclusion. We present on Friday and I am a so scared for our paper and our presentation in fear that I will fail. To counter act that action happening, I've been talking and getting to know my professor about the project letting him know whats going on and what not. SInce we have so many international students in our class, I feel like he will be more understanding  with the groups that have non-speaking students. Oh lawd I hope so… Only time we tell. I know they try there best but it's very difficult when you try to explain something  and they don't understand or do it at all. I don't get mad because thats rude and I hate when people do that but I have no idea what to do. I just need spring so I don't have to think and I can enjoy Florida. I am soooo looking forward to going Disney World, Universal Studios, and seeing my family. But most importantly not do anything!! WHOOO. So yeah BYE

Alcoholic

It's official, I think I am an alcoholic. This past weekend defiantly proved it. When I drink, I drink to much causing myself to black out even though I've stopped consuming alcohol a while before it happened. I thought I didm't black out this weekend but as it turns out, there is a shit ton of stuff I don't remember doing/happening. Much has to do with talk to people and that scares me because I say stupid shit when I am inebriated like that. As do most drunks but it's still scary. I like to send snap chats when I'm drunk and I sent some to my co-workers, obviously don't remember doing it, but it raised some concern that they're giving me an intervention. It kind of happened today at work because Anthony was kind of giving me a lecture about what my reputation on campus would be as "that girl" by everyone. It made me think about because I never really thought anybody would remember me or recognize me, but this last weekend a few people did from past parties I attended and did stupid stuff. So yeah, I am so happy spring break is here where I can be with family, keep a low profile, and let everyone do their thing and forget about me. I am however going to tone down the drinking. It's taking a toll on my body and is flat out making me do stupid shit. So yeah, I say this all the time but maybe this time will be true. BYE

Vandal Friday

So for Vandal Friday, the majority of in house girls have to have someone stay with them. I stayed with Delta Zeta last year and had a lot of fun! It helped persuade me to make the choice go DZ versus Pi Beta Phi. And because of that I was so looking forward to doing the same thing this year, but big shocker here, I have to fucking work. I requested friday off but one of the older ladies has paid vacation time that same weekend. However I am very fortunate enough to have all of spring break off so I can go down to Florida to visit my dad. I am very conflicted because I wanted that off but then again I am happy I got SB off. HOWEVER, once I return from SB, I work everyday except for monday! That means I cannot participate in ANY greek week activities. THAT is what I am most upset about. I miss everything fun we do, or supposed to do. I feel as if my entire freshmen year is going to be memories of me doing homework or fucking work. I am so pissed off. My goal for next year is to make enough money over the summer and have a lot more scholarships so I won't have to work as much as this year. I also want to study abroad in Denmark my second semester but we shall see how that goes. At this rate I feel as if I'll be stressed out all four years of college, with barely any "fun" memories. so yeah, BYE.

Phi Delt

So we have our rose ball this saturday and one of the girls in my sorority knows I have a crush on one of the older guys in Phi Delta Theta. So since her boyfriend happens to be one of his close friends she asked him for me. He said he would but we've seriously only talked like 2 times. He's a very quiet guy, reserved kind of guy and the only reason I have a crush on him is because he's literally tall, dark, and so freaking handsome. He's about 6 foot, of Arab decent, and fit like a mother fucking god. Good lord he is good to look at. However prior to her asking him for me, I had a back up date from a friend at work. I asked him if he would go with me if I couldn't find anyone because he to is tall and very handsome. Plus he's a fun guy who I know I would have a good time with and be a complete idiot around because we sometimes have random dance offs whenever we see each other. Plus he has a girlfriend and I wouldn't have to worry about him making moves or anything like that. And now that I am going with this new guy, I am afraid everything is going to be awkward and not fun, so we'll see how it goes. BYE.

Life

I feel like all I do on here is rant about how stressed out I am and how much I hate my life. Not going to lie thats how I feel about everything now-a-days. I work 32 hours a week, making it very limited for me to have free time, and in that "free time" all I do is homework. Specifically math. Fuck that class, fuck polya, and any other demonic class that requires so much god damn time from your day to do the same fucking repetitive problem. God I really want to talk to my advisor to see if I can with draw from that class and take a different one that would still fulfill my required math credit. Seriously, that class really fucking stresses me out. The past two quizzes I have done horrible on! This last week I fucking couldn't get higher than a 67% I have no idea how the hell I am supposed to pass this class when all I can think about is killing myself! FUCK POLYA!! I hate the way the class is structured, is does not help me at all! And have the time the people who are supposed to help you, DONT'! FUCK POLYA!!!! kay, thats all BYE

hmm its tuesday

Today i had only one class and then went to work, work was dumb people kept coming in right before we closed, it was irritating. Then i came home and decided to work on more math, then my room mate came home and she had to do her math too, i had to help her. I am so exhausted and tomorrow will be another long day, have class all day then an  8 hr work day after that. i am frustrated because i have a 10 page research paper due soon and i dont know what to write as a proposal, and my teacher grades hard. oh well hopefully i will do well. this semester has been a lot harder than my first one, i want to get good grades but with working 30 + hrs a week, doing sorority stuff, and school stuff it is a lot on my plate. hopefully it will get easier, but probably not. i need to find ways to become less stressed.

Monday...worst day ever

So today I had three classes back to back. After that I had to go to the polya lab to do math which i do not understand what so ever, and its frustrating to do that plus all my other classes. After that i went to the gym to release all the stress i had. Then i had to hurry home to get ready for chapter, then chapter thinking it would only take an hour decided to take two hours. And before i knew chapter would take this long i was going to go ask a guy to formal, but it was too late and i was exhausted. After chapter I did more math, and then decided to go get ice cream with my friend Rachel. We went to Baskin Robbins, then she took me to my boyfriends, where i waited for him for 2 hrs because he was in the library doing homework. Finally he comes back and then we talk and hangout. oh also in the time i was waiting for him I wanted to do more homework, but was unable due to my laptop being dead.