BUSY BEE

Lately I feel like I have no down time. I am always on the go with either work, school, sorority, just life in general. Plus last semester seemed so much easier compared to now. All my classes are kicking my ass and I have anxiety that I am going to fail, lose my scholarships, be forced to move back home, and become a drop out reject. Cool. I try so hard to do my best but it seems to fall short. For example, last night I was trying to do my math quiz and the highest I could score was a 73% because then the internet shut down all around campus. Awesome. Everything is just stressful and faking a smilie is getting real old. I just want to be down with these stupid pre-reques and actually do stuff for my major. Like, when the hell am I going to be doing pre-calc in marketing or public relations?! It's a waste of time and money. I sincerely wish I had done running start my senior year, that way I could be at sophomore standing. LAME. Ugh, plus I still have my business paper to finalize, and this week for math is 62 questions. I sincerely hate how much time it takes just to do 15 questions. Like I have to carve out at least 3 hours JUST for math. It should not be that high! Every damn day! Sometimes I feel like dropping out but then I remember what the end goal is and how much I would have to pay off at a minimum wage job, and that doesn't sound appealing at all. so yeah, thats my rant. BYE.

Work out!

TIME TO GET SOWLE! (as the kids call it these days) I didn't even know that word existed until the middle of last semester. I am trying super hard to get into the gym more because I am going to Florida for spring break and I really want my body to be somewhat in shape. I don't really eat right so I need to change that, but at least I kill myself while I'm at the gym. Today I did legs with a friend of mine, and thank god I have someone to do it with. She doesn't normally do weights but thats what I love to do, I hate cardio. We went after work which is always nice, but I couldn't stay long because I had to get my math done before midnight and I had no idea how long it would take me to do it. Turns out it took me only an hour. but i only got a 92% on it because of how freaking difficult it is. Shit, this semester is really going to kill. But I found out that I have two A's in classes I thought I was failing in. Plus my business class I have a C, I need our group to do amazing on our presentation so I can get a great mid term grade for that class. FML, everything sucks. But i'm sure I can get it done because I somehow managed to do it last semester, so we shall see… So yeah, BYE.

Weekend roundup ?

So to clarify, the reason I didn't post for Friday was because I was sick all Thursday night and friday morning. I posted for thursday in the morning and by night time, I was puking my guts out. I really don't know what happened. I went to the gym after work at around 9, saw one of my co workers and was some how got on the topic of dinner. So after both of us were done working out he drove me back to his place and cooked me dinner. It was really kind of him to do so, plus it was fantastic. He's an amazing cook! It was fish, rice, and asparagus! SO good! But once I was done eating I started getting a migraine and when I get those I start to puke from the pain. I have about an hour time frame from once it starts to when hell begins. The reason I know this so acutely is because I've been getting them since second grade. They begin with me seeing spots, then everything turns white and I can't see, then I can see and my head starts pounding and I want to take a nail gun to my temples because it feels like there is pressure build up and the only way for it to end is for me to stop it completely. I felt really bad but he kindly drove me home when I told him I didn't feel good. When I entered my room I shut all the lights off, took out my contacts, let down my hair, took some Excederin (the best pain reliever I have taken), and tried to fall asleep so I could escape the pain. The past few times this method worked, and it kind of did this time but I work up with a throbbing headache and I climbed down my bed to vomit. The fish wasn't so good coming back up. I inevitably laid down on my roommates bed (thank god she wasn't home) This process lasted all night long and into the morning. I had vomit on my hair, and a wet cloth on my face. My first class was at 10:30 am on friday and I was really hoping to make it but every time I sat up the room was spinning and I felt super queasy. I called my work at 11:30 and told them how I was feeling and they were really nice about letting me call in sick. I spent the rest of the day sleeping with no lights on, drinking water only, and around 3 finally eating a slice of bread. Thats how my friday night was spent to because I had to work saturday at 8am. So yeah thats all for now. BYE

Swing Dancing

Wednesday night a bunch of us collectively decided to go swing dancing at C.j's. I have never been all year but have nothing but good things about it thus far. I had to pay in $3 50 cents in pennies, 5 quarters, and 3 dimes. Needless to say the bouncer hated me. He stamped my hand after he counted and was like "kay go." My bad dude I'm a broke college student. I'm that poor. its sad I know. Any way, once I was clear, that place was packed! There were so many people, even WSU kids were there it was crazy. It was fun watching people who knew what they were doing, it was also a tad scary because some of those lifts look deadly, mixed with those girls who wore spiked heals…. Recipe for a potential disaster. Thankfully, they all knew what they were doing and no one was hurt. I danced with a few friends of mine that I saw there. I'm not very good, I only know a few moves, but they were thankfully able to teach me. Some guys from AGR I know were there and I last time I saw them I had a lot of beer. The one that I have crush on was one of them and I couldn't stop looking at him. He's so cute. It took me forever to dance with him. He never asked me so I had to work my way over to him to get him to ask me. It worked we did, and it was fun. We were about to leave but then we saw one of the guys get hard core rejected from this bitch. We all felt bad so I went up to him asking him to dance. He didn't know how to dance either so we just talked mainly. He's freaking tall! He said he was on the basketball team here at Idaho, lives in the LLCs, blah blah blah, told me not mess with Suki or Perrion cause there basically bad news bears. He was sweet yet awkward. After the song we left and came home. I went to bed at midnight aging and old myself I would wake up at 7 and go to the gym. That defiantly did not happen. But I got a lot of homework done instead. SO yeah, thats all. BYE

Tuesday catch up

Tuesday was pretty substantially typical. Wake up, go to my one class, then go to woke, close by myself. HOWEVER, this tuesday we had a social with Pike! It started at 7, when I was at work, but there was like an after party thing at one of guys' house. When I got there at 8 the game night was still going on. It didn't count though because it had to end around 8:30 for cru. I was still able to play a few rounds of some sort of apples to apples replica. I've never played that game but I can't…. Oh wait its cards against humanity.. That was the game we played. I randomly just remembered that. Anywho, so I played a few rounds on that then it had to end and a bunch of us went over to someones' house to hang out and drink. I told myself I wasn't going to drink because I am currently taking some medicine, so I just carried around a flask to make it seem like I was. It worked until we started playing drinking games. I didm't drink from the flask, just put my lips on it, stopped the drink with my tounge as I tipped it back. I randomly started taking a few sips of it. Like realllllllllllllllllyyyyyy small ones. I was freaking out that I was going to die so then I started drinking water and pretended to be drunk because at this point in the night everyone else was. The Pike party was a lot of fun. The guys are pretty chill and super nice. They called a DD for us and he took us home around 11:30. When we got back home, we were knocking on doors to find someone to take us to Taco Bell. Midnight munchies right? Fourth Meal? Yeah, I had a quesadilla. It was a good night. Not to mention I had a test at 9:30. It was for math and I'm pretty sure I only missed one question. So yeah. thats all for now. BYE

Weekend

This past three day weekend was unlike the last one. I was actually able to go home! I worked saturday night until 7 and my mom drove all the way from Spokane just to pick me up, only to turn around and drive right back. Mom of the year. We were supposed to go to dancing but we were both extremely tired so we just went home and went to bed. Then on sunday we went shopping. Keep in mind that I have not gone shopping since september. So when I was able to have a whole day, 6 hours to be exact, I dropped dime. I fucking earned it to. I worked three jobs last semester, volunteered and school. Dammit I was gonna shop. But in my defense, everything I bought had some sort of deal/sale. I bought a shirt for $3. It was awesome. Also, while at the mall, it just so happened to be a Deer Park fucking reunion. I saw so many people from high school, it was so weird. As I was shopping around my mom was informed that the mall closes at 6 and it was currently 5:55. We still had stuff on hold at JcPenny's, so we had to sprint and buy all the clothes. I was a process because the computer wasn't working and they couldn't find my moms account and I felt bad because they had to re-do the whole store. Which I completely understand from working at tri-state. But since it took so long the lady was nice enough to give me 15% discount, so the grand total was $98. And considering how much I had, was a fucking great ass deal. Plus all the other shit I had gotten, I spent barely $200. I didn't even break my budget. After that we went to dinner at The Onion, a hella bomb place in Spokane. My waiter was fucking hot! Like tall, black, handsome, and built! UGH! sexy. I gave him my number but he hasn't texted me and thats okay haha. Once dinner ended we went home and I went to a friends house around 930ish to catch up and talk about life. They go UW and SFCC, so we haven't seen each other in a long ass time. I left around midnight and went to bed because I was meeting another friend for coffee in the morning. It was great to catch  up and see old friends. I miss them. I miss the old memories I had with them, and I can't wait to make new memories this summer.

Last minute post

I probably should've posted this morning versues right now before I leave for work. But for some reason the fates of the earth had me up at 7 am in pain. So I had to wait until the student health clinic opened at 8. Not to mention I had my first exam at 10:30 this morning as well. I'm not going to say what it was of because it's very personal. But the exam was just as awkward as you could imagine. And while I was waiting, I tried to study as much as possible. Once the doctor figured out what was wrong he gave me a prescription that I had to start taking right away. It's bad for me to take anti-bitotics because I am allergic to practically all of them. It's very bad. But hopefully these won't kill me, or make me throw up. After I got my prescription I still had an hour, so I went to the Admin building for some sisters brew (yum) They had warned me that the pills would give leave a metallic taste in my mouth for a while. They were not wrong. It was utterly distasteful. I almost threw away my coffee it was so bad. But twenty minutes later it was gone. So I kept the coffee. I took the exam, hopefully I did decent. I was shooting for an A, but I think I might have gotten a low B or high C. I really need a good grade on this to boost my grade in the class. Currently I am eating sushi from 6th street market place and I hope that I won't regret this later. I have to leave to go to work now so yeah. BYE

Stressed

To damn much. School, work, homework, social life? Way to much to handle. Im failing my business class because of the two quizzes. It's stupid. I hate my life. So damn much to handle. I need to study for this class but I also have fucking math to deal with and nothing freaks me out more than the thought of failing two classes. I am serisouly so stressed out about everything. Im happy that I am leaving this weekend to go home but it also further stresses me out because I need to get everything done now. Ugh, plus it freaks me out to think about next years classes and how in the hell I'm going to pass those. The only thing that motivates me is thinking about my career. But for now I am so scared and panicked about failing all my classes and everything else. I want to have social life and not have to be stressed about making money. But I guess thats the real world for you. Learn every day and only to grow from what you have experienced. Ugh! so thats all. BYE

Did you know?

Both Nike and Coke are responding internally: Coke uses water-conservation technologies and Nike is using more synthetic material that is less dependent on weather conditions. At Davos and in global capitals, the companies are also lobbying governments to enact environmentally friendly policies.

But the ideas are a tough sell in countries like China and India, where cheap coal-powered energy is lifting the economies and helping to raise millions of people out of poverty. Even in Europe, officials have begun to balk at the cost of environmental policies: On Wednesday, the European Union scaled back its climate change and renewable energy commitments, as high energy costs, declining industrial competitiveness and a recognition that the economy is unlikely to rebound soon caused European policy makers to question the short-term economic trade-offs of climate policy.

Article from my business class. I thought it was a bit interesting. Not this part but the whole article as well. It mainly talks about how Coca-cocla and other companies are having to adapt to the climate change. so yeah, something to think about . BYE

DEXTER

I am currently watching Dexter on netflix while writing this. I just started watching tho show and I am in love with it. It's twisted, creepy, and best of all, psychotic. I love shows like these because the main characters lead a double. Like Dexter, he plays mister good guy, but loves to kill people. Kind of like Peter Bateman in American Psycho. Also love that movie. I had to watch it for my ISEM. I should probably do my math quiz instead of netflix, but Dexter is to good to pass up. Further more, after analyzing my business grade, I really need to pay better attention on what to study for on the study guide. I do study but for the past two quizzes I have studied the wrong material and have gotten an F. We have our first exam on friday and I really need to get an A on it. FML. It just gets harder from here. I have to take summer classes to of set me taking 20 credits a semester in order to graduate on time. Further more, I need to get in shape or hit the gym. I want to try out to be on the cheer team but I so not in shape. But if I do try out and somehow make the team, then I would not be able to study abroad. So I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I need to hit the gym sometime tomorrow though. Hopefully tomorrow, probably not but thats okay. No it's not actually. Now I am just killing time/words while paying attention to Dexter. Okay i feel like this is 100 words,so yeah. BYE

Friday

I woke up at 740am so I can get and early start on my laundry because I have neglected to do it for so long and I am starting to run out of clothes. It took a lot for me to leave my bed and run my clothes upstairs to the laundry room.  It was I got back to my hall that I started to wake up because I was doing lunges down the hall. When I got back to my room I did some abdominal work out outs and push-ups. Now I am some what awake. I still need to find time to do/finish my math homework, start on a project for my ISEM, and start my oral conference for my ENVS class. I am a bit of a procrastinator. Kinda. I like to get my stuff done but I also work a lot so I only accomplish about one subject per night because I also like my sleep. OH! I also have to send in a scholarship due by the 15th of February. Hmmm, I'll probably do that next while I wait for my laundry to be done. BYE.

No Idea

I have no idea how people remember to write on here everyday. I completely forgot to do it yesterday so I am making up for both right now. Yesterday was a hell of a day. I thought I lost my Vandal card before I left and I had to get to a meeting so I had to leave without it. Thankfully, after I got breakfast at starbucks, my roommate was home after her lab and let me in. We looked in one of the drawers, moved my makeup bag, and what do we see? my vandal card. Awesome. From there we went to class together, because we have the same ISEM, took a quiz about a movie we paid no attention to and reading we forgotten about. Awesome. Went to work all fine and dandy and then for some reason I walked in on a lady in the fitting room. I have never done that and thankfully the lady was fully dressed putting the clothes back on the hanger. But by the end of the day I was $8 away from breaking $1,000! I was so pissed. We work off of commission and hitting a grand is an extra $20 on your paycheck. When I got home I watched the winter olympics and worked on my final draft. And that was my entire day. BYE.

Red Scare

I kind of hate group projects in college because I feel like I know no one in any of my classes and when we do have projects it's really awkward. Everyone is in there own little group, knowing all whose around them, and then there is me sitting in the back not knowing anyone. Then when the teacher assigns groups you have to awkwardly walk around trying to find whose in your group, when a convenient time for everyone to meet, try and get to know each other. It's slightly annoying. For my ISEM class we are assigned a group for the whole semester to work on projects and what not. Also, in my business class we are assigned groups for the whole semester as well. Only problem with that is the people in my group are from some asian country who don't speak english, one of the guys doesn't even show up to class, so it's up to this other girl and I to get everything organized. Yay us. But for now that is all because I have to get up early and go to the student accounts office for financial aid stuff. BYE.

Unorthadox

I have no idea why I chose that title because it is completely irrelevant to this post. Any who, the reason  I didn't post yesterday was because at my work we had to to inventory, which lasted from 7am to 10pm. There was a lot of shit in that store. So I came home, took a shower and went to bed. But I am writing one now so I hope this makes up for it.
This morning I woke up at 7 due to my mom texting me saying how much me she missed me. It was kind but I could't fall back asleep, so i decided to get ready early and head to the polya lab until my class at 12:30. It sucked because while I was at polya, I took the quiz about 5 times and the highest grade I got was 50% and I need a 60 to take the test. I am so dead for this math class. I am so scared for. Everything else is fine and dandy.Work was fine pretty steady to say the least. My big came in to see me and we talked for like an hour about life and everything. I love our talks, were slowly becoming closer and I love it. But as I mentioned in a previous post, he's leaving me to go play rugby in Georgia. Oh well, thats all for now. BYE.